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Over the course of the last couple of years, I have been on a path of self-discovery and through this journey, I have realized that you cannot rely on anyone else. While I don’t have all the same people in my life as I did a few years ago, I have become close to those who offer me something in return. Mostly, it is simple things like company, conversation, and understanding. The feeling of not being wanted isn’t really in my life anymore, but at the same time, I feel that no matter how many people you have around you, you cannot rely solely on their love to move forward.
I am a fairly open person and tend to share my plans, especially those I am excited about. However, I have realized that this is not always the best approach. When I bounce ideas off others, usually those close to me, it often blows up in my face. The feedback I receive is often less than uplifting and takes the wind out of my sails.
I keep getting whispers to not share my plans and to show what I am doing by just taking action. I am starting to understand that my path is unique and relying on the opinions of others, even those close to me, is not the best course of action. When I repeatedly share my ideas as I build on them, I get the feeling that everyone thinks I am just talk. This usually becomes true because I lose faith in myself, as the opinions of those I sought differ from my ideas. While I try to think outside the box, I feel others believe I should stay within it. I end up doubting myself and becoming scared to move forward.
This is why I feel guided to keep things to myself—not to deceive others, but to protect myself, my energy, and my ideas. I have known since I was young that I wasn’t meant to follow, and I believe it is time to stop relying on others’ support to move forward. This, however, isn’t just a personal issue; it is a collective one.
We have been attacked for thousands of years to destroy the spirit of humanity. Through this, we have experienced soul fragmentation on a collective level. This loss of power is what keeps us bound and trapped. By standing in our own power and not relying on close loved ones, social norms, and acceptable behaviors, we can break the mold and make a difference. We rely too much on others to determine our success. Do you work hard enough? Do you have enough value? Do you fit into society? Are you going along with the plan?
We have so many expectations placed on us, and I fear that I am going to let others down by not following their lead. The whole time, I know this is not for me. So why do I rely on the “OK” of others? I don’t want to hurt those close to me and often sacrifice my happiness for theirs. How can I be happy this way? Well, I can’t. I need to be me, I need to be authentic, I need to be free to make decisions without consequences. In order to do this, I have to let go of my perceived expectations of others. Basically, screw everyone; they will all screw you, especially those that you are closest to, because your heart is more vulnerable. Once you become what some see as selfish—standing in your full power, focusing on your integrity, keeping your plans to yourself, and only showing others what you are doing through your actions—allow your actions to come from the heart and not the ego. Show them the results, not the plan. They will only disrupt the plan.